Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Love is on its way.


Back in 2008 when the Jonas brothers 3D movie came out & my best friend & I shamelessly went to the midnight premier while crying joyous tears over a shirtless joe, they debuted a new song that never really got the praise it deserved. Titled "Love is On Its Way" I dedicated hours upon hours of my time to writing a 500 page fan fiction named after that song. It's funny how seven years later, as a sophomore in college I am still listening to that song on repeat. No longer an avid Jonas fan, but most definitely a lover of all thing love songs, especially the applicable ones. Here's the thing, I'm at this point in my life where everything is changing so rapidly, and every decision I make potentially affects the outcome of my whole life. The biggest of all the life decisions for me, is finding an eternal companion. Dating was really fun freshman year, and it's getting really old now, as date after date we go over the same list of questions only to find out a kiss or two down the road that yet another person is not quite right for eternity. It would be so easy to stop dating, to focus on school & study abroad & be selfish. But I am selfish, and I want that companionship, so I continue to date. I hope that someday soon I'll figure out this whole dating thing, that I'll find a man who makes me blissfully happy and completely challenges me & makes me want to be better. Lonely, I believe that you will find me, & together we will truly see, love is on its way.
xoxo.
Sarah

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Optimistic for the unknown.

Today I found out that my application I submitted for Peru back in November never actually made it to where it was supposed to. I spent two months refreshing my email multiple times a day with the hopes that I would finally find an email proclaiming my acceptance into a program that would literally be a once in a lifetime opportunity. I'm heartbroken in a way I never thought I could be heartbroken. I always thought that if I didn't get into peru it would be because I didn't get accepted, not because I never technically applied.  There are so many emotions swirling through my head right now, and I really don't know how to put them into words. I have always said that what is meant to be will find a way, and right now everything is so unknown but I'm trying so very hard to be optimistic about it all. Maybe I'll go to Spain and frolick on the beaches of Barcelona, maybe I'll teach kids English in Mexico, maybe I'll climb Palm trees in Puerto Rico. I don't really know where I'll be six months from now, but I am pledging to be optimistic for the unknown.
xoxo.
Sarah